9:15pm
I had to get out, I needed some air. Some fresh air and fresh faces, and some liquor. Maybe even some conversation.
When ever I start to get an anxiety attack I remind myself of all the people working in an effort to come here on the briefest of visits. I am in paradise. Beyond that, I try to remember it’s possible to find peace no matter where I am. Evil does not dictate my state of mind and I will not join evil in its misery and in the gutter.
Two of the most powerful words in the English language
“I am”
Tis important to remember this.
Flashback (American TV commercials)
If you’ve ever been up late at night on a Tuesday, watching star trek at 3am it means you have no job nor do you have much of a life or both.
They put the saddest commercials on tv late into the evening. Commercial number uno, they show an IT specialist working on a printer and having no fun. Then the narrator chimes in, if you are not happy with your job come to our bartending school and learn how to be the life of the party while behind the bar. You can make lots of money and have fun.
Commercial number two. They show a bartender, maybe in his thirties. They portrait him as having no future, then the narrator chimes in, are you stuck in a dead end job with no future, come to our IT school and learn about the fantastic world of Information Technology. Leave that dead end job for a carreer in IT.
I met someone once that made 150k per year. His job was working in hotel casinos. Though he lived in the burbs of Chicago, he needed to travel across the country on a regular basis and he needed to get an apartment in Las vegas as this was his base of operations. He confide it in me that all he wanted to do was to be at home with his wife and kids while he was on the road and away from home. When he would come home all he would do was complain about how much is wife hated him and how she made his life a living hell. I asked him, “why did you say you missed being home with your wife if all she does was humiliate you and make you miserable? He gave me no answer. All he could do was produce a look upon his face as if he was trying to figure out a math problem in his head but came up with no answer.
This person is the perfect example of someone making a very good paycheck and being miserable with his life. He hated being home and he hated being away from home.
The past two nights I had dreams about family.
I left home Jan 2nd, 2013. Today is Sunday march 31st and it’s dawning on me that traveling around the world is no big deal. Its like traveling across the country of America except from time to time someone asks to see your passport, then they stamp it.
99% of all the countries love to see the American passports. They view it as tourist dollars coming to their country.
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